Mind + Body = Yoga Via Breath

Okay, so I feel more centered, much more grounded than I did a couple days ago. It really felt good to get out and correct the false optimism that I've been sharing. It always catches up to me when someone asks me how I'm doing. It causes some mixed feeling if they really want to know because so often it's just a throw around question that people use to get done with the generalities of life. It's not even a matter of courtesy anymore. So of course I haven't been telling people that i'm not okay. But at this rate, I'm honestly able to say "Yes, I am feeling good!"

So even before I begin my "Focus on the Positive" I am so excited for the coming days. I started reviewing the scripts for the tv show and I am thrilled and know I'll be fine! I started sharing with people at Yoga and they are so extremely excited! Also, I'm watching the Victoria Secret Runway show and I've decided, there's a minimal possibility that I could ever be a Victoria Angel. But at this point, nothings gonna stop me from going for anything! After all, I'm doing comedy--and in all my years I would've never guessed that's what I would be doing. It's just a matter of keeping centered and grounded. As my yoga teacher explained, Yoga means joining: Mind and Body. And to join the Mind and Body, one must use Breath to complete the exchange. So that's why I'm glad I'm taking Yoga.

So now onto "Focus on the Positive"... 35 happy things in the past 24 hours.

1. I have a Stand-Up comedy audition.
2. I have a workshop with Casting Director Darlene Hansen
3. I have my Pandora Back
4. I took the doggies to the park
5. I got my Demo Reel and Headshot copies done and ready to go for New agents
6. I turned in my notice of terminating representation with Vince
7. I got a really good workout at Yoga tonight, I really pushed harder than usually!
8. I got some of thoses Christmas cakes, soooo good!
9. I have a photo shoot set for next week
10. I talked to my friend Katy for the first time in months, she's proud about me being single and going after what I dream for!
11. Had Yummy Yummy Eggs for breakfast
12. I might get another month of cable free since comcast seems to not want to keep their act together
13. It was warm today, coulda swore it was September!
14. Andrew's working toward getting my PC laptop back up and running
15. Someone in my yoga class is so thrilled that I'm gonna be on TV she was so happy for me!
16. I am slowly seeping my way back into happy times with my subconscious control
17. I love the feeling in Yoga of sweat pooling on my back then when I turn over in Savasana feeling the cooling sensation, sorry if that grosses anyone out, but it's amazing!
18. I know what my favorite Victoria Secret Model is! But I'm not telling... it's a secret...
19. Called and talked to Jeanie today, made my day!
20. Talked to Kasha Today, that made me even happier!
21. Got Rent paid on time!
22. Got to Go shopping!
    
23. Pretzel also cuddled with me all night, that cutie...
24. Discovered the libary is less busy on a Tuesday than any other day
25. I am so thrilled to be in New Mexico that I'm astonishing myself
26. I didn't need a nap today--almost thought I did, but then I recovered!
27. The bank lady Cynthia is awesomely amazing!
    
28. And her computer likes me!
29. Got some old business taken care of like my IRA 401K thingy
30. Did clean my house a bit!
31. Did some laundry so I have nice clean yoga clothes to wear
32. I wish to have the presence that Heidi Klum has, she was beautiful tonight!
33. Feeling good motivation because when I started cleaning my house, it felt like a was restoring stillness and a sense of calmness to myself.
    
34. I actually got stuff done today!
35. I looked into my Deepak Chopra Book, gave me some good reminders for inspiration
36. I had a vision that I'm going to be up for an Academy award soon, happy vision
37. I'm able to start controling my thoughts with more clarity and seeing when a hicup is really an obstacle that I'm chosing to win rather than combat it and break through it
38. Took my dogs out for 4 walks today.
39. My bed is really comfy
40. I'm on my path of happiness, truth, love and passion. This feels so much better than living as a victim to my circumstance, allowing and letting things get in the way, living day to day like if I woke up dead, no one would really care. I feel as though I have purpose, I have control, I have a choice, and I have the strength to really BE and pursue anything that provides a venue of my message to spread love and create a safety feeling that people can feel and BE as well.

Yay! I always feel so good when I get done with those exercises because then I think back at what I missed and go OMG! I shoulda put that down! But it gives me a surrounding of positive energy and it causes my subconscious to look for the positive than the negative. And that makes all the difference in the world when the industry can be brutal, competitive, and can sometimes cause bad images. But by this positive light, I can remain strong and powerful in keeping it clean and follow in the likes of Meryl Streep, Heidi Klum, Julia Roberts, Amy Adams, and Taylor Swift.

Thanks everyone, for just reading. I don't know who you are, since no body really comments, but just knowing that someone out there is reading and even though I may be a nut at times and I'm sure there's things I should better explain. This is overall making it that much easier to go after everything. Yay You! Bravo You!

Well, Peanut's giving me the bedtime nudge. I have a meeting with the Producers for the Game Show tomorrow... oh exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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"It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, "Always do what you are afraid to do."
~Ralph Waldo Emerson