After circling the cart at my current job and pulling the fingers on the gloves for the 400th time to keep me entertained, it dawned on me that I need to kick all this up a notch. I'm not here to work in boring jobs that have nothing to do with acting, even if it pays my bills. Also, the little desperation would be good. Again, in the words of Jim Carrey:
“Desperation is a necessary ingredient to learning anything, or creating anything. Period. If you ain't desperate at some point, you ain't interesting.”
~Jim Carrey
~Jim Carrey
So in essence this will kick my ass a little bit harder to get a role, an extras job, or continue to pursue any options within acting. I need to check in with Vince to see if I can do the internship or what more is available. I may need to check with some of the older contacts here to see if i can get into classes and go from there. I think that'll help my drag that I'm feeling.
Besides all that acting stuff, I made friends with a 5 year old that lives in my same Area. She's interesting and it gave me a chance to see how badly I am when it comes to fighting and winning my objective. Her first objective was to walk Peanut with me. I folded when I figured Peanut wasn't mad about it. Then she wanted to walk to the park with me. I tried different tactics to try winning the objective of "I want you [the kid] to give me my power back" and I had it until she said, "I'm gonna go ask my mom" after convincing her she can't go unless she asks her mom and her mom said "yes." So, we walked to the park; talking about some of her home life and what she liked to do. Then we got back from the park and it was time for me to leave for work. I tried telling her that I needed to go and she kept putting up her tactics: "but i want some milk...but the dogs will miss me...Do you have make-up?....can we paint my nails?...I need to use the potty..." etc, etc, etc. I kept losing at all these requests. Finally, her brother ran into us and said she had to go home right away. So I got saved, but still, I didn't really fight for the fact that throughout these entire scenes that I just wanted to be left alone and that I wanted to leave for work. The Urgency and the Determination was not raised high enough. Lesson to be learned....
Hah, how bout that... a day i wasn't supposed to be focused on Acting and I still found an Acting lesson. I felt bad for her, so I'll probably keep hanging out with her for a little while. She said her mom isn't very caring and sleeps a lot and it's mainly just her and her brother alone. We'll see what happens. It's still another thing for me to be distracted by and not do my own challenging things for acting; however, it's challenging for me to make relationships that matter and stick, so who knows.
Besides all that acting stuff, I made friends with a 5 year old that lives in my same Area. She's interesting and it gave me a chance to see how badly I am when it comes to fighting and winning my objective. Her first objective was to walk Peanut with me. I folded when I figured Peanut wasn't mad about it. Then she wanted to walk to the park with me. I tried different tactics to try winning the objective of "I want you [the kid] to give me my power back" and I had it until she said, "I'm gonna go ask my mom" after convincing her she can't go unless she asks her mom and her mom said "yes." So, we walked to the park; talking about some of her home life and what she liked to do. Then we got back from the park and it was time for me to leave for work. I tried telling her that I needed to go and she kept putting up her tactics: "but i want some milk...but the dogs will miss me...Do you have make-up?....can we paint my nails?...I need to use the potty..." etc, etc, etc. I kept losing at all these requests. Finally, her brother ran into us and said she had to go home right away. So I got saved, but still, I didn't really fight for the fact that throughout these entire scenes that I just wanted to be left alone and that I wanted to leave for work. The Urgency and the Determination was not raised high enough. Lesson to be learned....
Hah, how bout that... a day i wasn't supposed to be focused on Acting and I still found an Acting lesson. I felt bad for her, so I'll probably keep hanging out with her for a little while. She said her mom isn't very caring and sleeps a lot and it's mainly just her and her brother alone. We'll see what happens. It's still another thing for me to be distracted by and not do my own challenging things for acting; however, it's challenging for me to make relationships that matter and stick, so who knows.
"Inside every child is an 'emotional tank' waiting to be filled with love. When a child really feels loved, he will develop normally but when the love tank is empty, the child will misbehave. Much of the misbehavor of children is motivated by the cravings of an empty 'love tank'."
~Dr. Ross Campbell, found in The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman
~Dr. Ross Campbell, found in The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman
Well tomorrow is Sunday, and I don't work all that much (YAY!). So the Acting Workout exercise is.......#3 - Reading on Acting Methods... which means i can catch up on my Ivana, Shurtleff, and Uta techniques and can actually get a better understanding on my script breakdowns and acting. I'll report on interesting points and encouraging words tomorrow!
Yippy!
Yippy!
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