Progress on the Script breakdown

I have made some discoveries on the script breakdown. As far as the storyline for The Goddess goes, it is about a girl named Emily, but living as the successful actress Rita who is continually looking for love since her mother abandoned her at birth and she's never had a steady parental unit to guide her life. The scene I picked is where she confesses for her need to have a companion in her life. So here is my breakdown thus far:

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Rita

Overall Objective: "To Be Loved"
With my mom abandoning and always passing me off to others, I never felt stable and did not understand the idea of "Love" and all its about. This causes me to find love through giving myself to men in ways that others would be appalled. But I earn this to be a redeeming quality because it is how I get my sense of myself and feel what I believe to be love. I marry young and can't find love anywhere. In the scene in I constantly fight to win my mother's love through connecting with her interest in religion: I open to admitting my sins.

Scene Objective: "To get my mom to give me hope" -OR- "To get my mom to accept me"
I want to get better from my alcoholic and drug addict state, I want to know what true love is. But without getting the primal feeling from my own mother, i may not be able to ever know what it is. I need my mother to give me hope that love is possible and that it is not all lost. Also, if i get her acceptance (which is possible now that she's religiously involved) then I can begin to feel like her little girl, instead of an empty vessel.

Obstacles
-Fear of Rejection
-I assumed my mother will oblige to taking care of me, this desperation could cause loss of my power
-Intimidation of Religion and my mother's desire for me.
-Repeated abandonment from my mother
-My self defeat and possible relapse in relationships, alcohol and in the spotlight

Substitution

My Mom as she at one event or another has fulfilled the feelings needed for the above obstacles.

Moment Before
I just got released from the hospital after psychological observation from my nervous breakdown over my loss of companionship from my last husband. The personal battle is too much to give online, but there is a personal event that I can use.

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I was reading more on the next steps in Ivana's book and the next step would be to look into the Inner Objects. In the script there are significant props (for lack of a better term) that need to have a personal attachment to them. For example, the mansion the scene takes place at is my home I earned from my acting success. I will substitute this for a house for my parents' current home. I compare it to an Aunt's home, joking that for how arrogant she is, her house is no comparison to mine. I'll use my dad's other house as the comparison house. There's a lot more: my mother's bible, the cats I talk about in my monologue, etc. that need a personal attachment.

Tomorrow I need to finish the remaining breakdown and tape it to see the audition. Then it'll be time to do the faux audition. Saturday will bring a new exercise. But to end on a positive note, here are the things I am proud of today:

1. I made it through yoga with minimal issues
2. My dogs got 4 walks
3. I got a part-time job
4. I completed 2 days of Acting Workout
5. I made good Mac and Cheese from scratch.

Well, that's all for now.